The Roller Coaster of Life

Well the last few months since graduation has definitely been a twist in my life. I've learned many hard and valuable lessons, some of which I pray I never repeat! I've probably developed more wrinkles in my brain, creases in my forehead, and wrinkles under my eyes.

And through it all, I would have had it no other way. I probably could have done things differently, but if you don't mess up anything, you don't have anything to fix. And fixin things are my specialty. lol I think I'll take a break from fixin others' problems and spend more time fixin myself.

I've made a huge decision to be in Utah for the next year. That is the last place I thought I wanted to be. But it turns out, that God knows a lot more than I give him credit for and things are going beautifully for me in the beautiful mountains of Utah! I look around and see God's wonders more than I ever did in Vegas. But I do sometimes miss the starry lights from the city and my friends and mission buds! But what a vacation that will be, so I'm not too concerned!

I've had a couple of relationships with guys this summer that have made my heart race, but the non commitment of it all rattled my brain, kept me puzzled, and left me with emptiness. But in that process, I have met one guy that has made my heart melt more than any guy since my ex-fiance. I haven't felt that much chemistry and attraction for awhile and yet, there is so much more to him than that. He's still unknown to most people and I am not even sure he understands or even knows that I feel this way for him. We're obviously not dating, but I've found what I'm looking for and I'm content.

This summer has been all about finding out the dreams and hopes I've had and want to have and making them come true. I've wanted to be a teacher since I was a little girl and I am making it happen in less than a month. It's so exciting (and expensive) to get my classroom ready and to finally feel that what I'm doing is as worthwhile as the 18 months I spent on my knees praying and teaching for the people of Las Vegas.

Some of my passions and desires have been lost through the years until recently and I've found there is so much more life to look forward to than I could ever imagine. So there are ups and there are downs on this roller coaster of life. So I'm just trying to enjoy the ride, hold on during the downers, and look forward to the blast upward!