Loving life....

So here's an update to my faithful readers:

Sorry I've been a little...busy as of late and haven't had the time to sit down and collect my thoughts. So here's an update for those who are on the edge of their seat about my life :)

I met a guy on Valentines Day and we both wanted to know more about each other. It started off simply...just hanging out a couple of times a week. Then I went to Idaho and when I came back I realized I liked him more than just a few times a week worth. But I still wasn't excited about dating him...because he's kind of...a geek :)

So we went slowly, but then I realized all of a sudden that he would be living for Texas in a short time to do the Apex Alarm thing and our time was very limited. So we started upping the time we spent together and it seemed we were inseparable that last week he was here. My trust in him got stronger as I got to know him more and more. The more I spent with him, the more I wanted to keep spending my time with him.

My favorite thing about him...oh his name is Fred, is that he is so respectful of me. In so many ways he has SHOWN me how he cares for me and it has spoken volumes to me. I was really sad to see him leave a few days ago. In fact I spent a great deal of my time crying that day! I was not happy he was gone, but I am able to stand back and breathe. It's so easy to get caught in the moment and enjoy it, but I honestly have so much to learn about him still.

When I went to Baltimore for a week last month we talked on the phone a lot and that's when I really started liking him, so I am kind of excited of the time we have apart, although there is no way that I could keep it up for too long. It's not in my nature to date long distance. I've tried and I become to lonely or read messages wrong, or I feel abandoned after a day of not talking. I know...I am needy. But I give as much as I want in return...and if he is not sick of it by now...he must like it, be like that also, or he must be crazy! Either way, life has turned for the better and I've had a lot of happy times lately. It's possible I'm moving closer to him in Texas while he is there for a few months, but it seems like forever before school lets out.

School, by the way, is doing okay, but there is always so much to do, and never enough energy at the end of a teaching day to prepare it all. I guess being a new teacher has its ups and downs and I am just feeling a few of the downs of preparation. I'm SOOOO excited for the beach which is coming up in almost one month. I am excited to rest, get away from regular life, see my family, and turn into a sexican for a few months.

Well....that is me in a bit of time. Cheers!

Thoughts about Fred

4-19-09

I've been dating Fred, although he just left for Houston for 4 1/2 months and we are on hold for now. I was really torn up when he left and I realized how much I really liked him.

So I was at the temple today with my ward and I was sitting with Sr. Montgomery. I had an okay day, but I was really missing Fred. He was on his way to Memphis to help set up their office. He had only been gone two days. I was thinking about him alot when we were eating dinner because the stake president was sitting across from me and we were talking about dating. He told me that his talk for stake conference was going to be about dating and we started giving him all kinds of advice that he will probably bring up on Sunday. I was talking about Fred of course and how even though he was obsessed with his computer and technology stuff, he hadn't let it come between us. I asked the stake president if it was okay to be dating someone that wasn't temple worthy currently but was working on it. He said it depended on the situation and that I'd have to judge it for myself.

So on top of all that, when I went into the Endowment room I was praying for what I should be doing. I am kind of scared to ask if he would be the right one, but I do ask if he would make a good father, should I continue dating him, etc. Then during the session, Sr. Montgomery leaned over and told me she had thought alot about the questions I had asked her on Sunday. I had asked her how she knew her husband was the right one for her. She had told me she had known right away that he was right for her. BUt when he finally proposed he told her that he didnt think there was one right person for each other. He said, "When there's a will, there's a way." If two people have the will to be together and they both put in their all, then it will work. I thought alot about that. I didnt like him a ton in the beginning but he kind of just grew on me.

I was thinking about how I ad thought he was such a geek in the beginning and that over time he had really grown on me. Then I started thinking about that time a few months ago that I started thinking that I would rather marry a dork than marry a cute ridiculous man who cared nothing about the things I cared for. I started thinking of a new motivational talk I could give: It's ok to be a dork. Then I started thinking about Sydeny White (the movie) and how that would tie in perfectly.

The last thing I was thinking about was smashing cake in Fred's face and saying, "I'm just practicing for later." I did that at Meischa's house when my dad was down for my birthday. I really said it as a joke and then we started joking around at being married. We still do it but I was thinking about that in the temple, and then I pictured us standing outside of the temple in wedding gear taking our pictures on the grounds. Weird. I don't know if we're ready for that step and I am not positive he is the one yet.  But he could be.

When I was leaving the temple I checked my messages and he had left me one that said, "Say hi to the Lord for me." I wrote him back and said, "Lord said if you haven't seen her in white, you're missing out." He wrote back and said, "Haha, I won't miss out forever." I thought that was cute and a perfect way to end my temple experience. :)