Hoole...and other distractions

I've recently gotten into this amazing book series. Actually my life is kind of trapped in them currently. It is great to have a break from home...but there reasons to hide myself in my room. So I read this amazing book series in the meantime.

My classes have been doing their expedition on birds. Bird this..birds that. Well during the summer when I was researching to get myself ready I came across a book called Capture by Kathryn Lasky. It was amazing. It taught lessons about how you should follow your heart and cling to your past to help you make decisions in the future. It was about owl kingdoms that were in danger of complete and utter distraction, if not for the Guardians of GaHoole who rise each night to perform noble deeds, make strong the weak, vanquish the proud...etc. I read the first one to my crew and we ended up reading the first three together. Well since I have so much time on my hands I am now on book 9. I have slowed a bit because I got all the seasons of Office for Christmas...and my eyes hurt from scanning back and forth. So I have had a chronic headache the last few days. But still I am enthralled. It has "captured" my attention even more than the Twilight or Harry Potter series. It teaches lessons about the gizzard (the heart).

It is my outlet for the time being...but changes are coming and I feel them. There are so many goals I have myself for this coming up year. I want to start writing again and preparing my motivational talks. I want to do something outlandish this summer....possibly Germany in the near future. I miss a dear friend there. I want to look into starting my Masters. I'm impatient to have my own family...but I guess I should be using this time wisely. I hear so many couples wishing that they would have found each other later in life so they could achieve their single dreams. I feel no such hold back. I can't wait for the day that I no longer have to fill my time with unfulfilled dreams to be accomplished by myself. I'm ready to work as a team player.

In the meantime...books, writing, teaching, occasional dating, dancing, and keeping myself on the straight and narrow!

12-3-08

It's been awhile. I have avoided updating my life because there is not always alot of good stuff going on and I don't want to disappoint my readers. ;)

Events in my life have been up and down as always, but there are many celebrations. I made it through the first few months of school without killing myself or any of the students. ;) I've met alot of people here in Ogden and have learned what true friendship means and who you're true friends really are. I miss those that are far away from me.

I am excited for a new year. I need a few dramatic changes and a few chances to start over. This year there was alot of improvement and alot of things I learned about myself, but I am grateful for the progress I have made. Sometimes certain things have happened or I have been hurt along the way, but then I have to look at where I was and where I currently am.

I went to Tennessee to visit with family. It was alot of fun to spend time with my nieces and brother and sister-in-law. I am excited to take some time off from school in three weeks. There is so much to do and I never have breathing time. So endure is what is the goal for the next few weeks.

drained...

So I've decided to so things differently the last two weeks. But I am finding that bad habits are hard to break. I am ready for a break already.

I'm going to Tennessee for Thanksgiving and Texas for Christmas. The breaks are not coming soon enough. I get excited about things and certain things that I should be excited about...I'm not. I get disappointed if things don't work out or if plans fall through.

I've picked up a few projects again and I'm getting more and more used to my surroundings in Utah. The dating is still a failure so far, but what can you do but keep moving forward? I wish I didn't have that problem anymore.

School is tiring. Mono is going around in our school and I just hope I can avoid catching any sicknesses. It would be so hard to make up substitute lesson plans. Our school is so unique that I would hate to be a substitute coming to our school. It's ridiculously organized.

Mmmm not the best update, but I feel so....drained. I had an amazing week last week and I was mostly happy. I need that kind of week again.

11-5-08

I've made a few life changes lately and I am doing great. One of the goals I have made is to be happy. Eternally happy. Whatever it takes! Sometimes that will mean giving up what I want and waiting on the Lord. I am OK with that ;) I've had a hard past few months and I am tired of it. I want control of my life again and I have tried as much as I can.

So I am moving to another phase..similar to what happened in April to me...but more permanent.

School is great...busy...but an adventure. OK that's the update for now! My new haircut is on here. I got it in Idaho at a Spa with my best friends. We pampered ourselves and spent lots of money! ;)

10-25-08

Sundays are always good and bad for me. So I am going to prepare for this one.

• I had a pretty decent week of school. My plans went better until about Thursday.
• I even had a few connection minutes in Lit. class with a few students! Yay!
• I have a date with the cutest guy in the ward tonight ;) But I also won that at the dating auction! ;)
• K and I are on talking terms and we're celebrating his birthday next week. I miss his friendship.  I need to hurry and date someone so it can be normal again!
• My car has been running good.
• I am pretty healthy.
• Grateful to be in my institute teacher
• I've spent three days with Meisha and her family. And have loved it!
• I went to a character dinner yesterday and had a blast being Ms. Scarlet.

Ms. Scarlet....

Tonight was so much fun! I was invited to this party where you are given a character and you show acting the part. So our them was the Clue game/movie. I was of course Ms. Scarlet. We changed it a little to where she was also southern and a daddy's girl. I was very flirtatious and lively at the party always mentioning my good looks and how wealthy I was. It was so much fun and the other characters played their part so well. I included to picture. It is definitely on the top ten list for Ogden ;)


Misha and Kirstie fixing my hair and makeup!

Yes I am a knockout when I actually try!!!

This group was so much fun to be in character with!!!

Yes folks....that is the amazing Jenny Flake!

Today

10-23-08

I am not a quick mover on-er. I wish I could be. I start entertaining thoughts of being with certain people and then it takes me forever to talk myself out of liking them. I think I have a separation stress that comes over me and then I get very needy. Then I start liking random people that are not even close to what I'm looking for. And then they take days and weeks to get over and I just waste my time liking people that are not even what I'm looking for.

Just some confusing thoughts that I've had lately. I miss my family. I don't like being here in Ogden alone. Josh is only two hours away, but he is so busy with work and school that I feel like I burden him. My dad has been a little weepy every time I call and he is worried. I know he is. I am struggling...and he can't do anything for me. I can only turn things around. And I will....it's just a matter as long suffering, patience, and perseverance...and well I'm just too stubborn to give up on things that I know that are right. I just need to make sure I'm right.